Thoughts

Houston had ice yesterday so we stayed home and were lazy all day! It was nice to sit by the fire and watch a movie! Mick got Graham the movie "Cars" this weekend...let's just say it was a big hit!! Graham loved it! He is truly all boy! He loves anything that has to do with cars, trucks, trains or tools! I hope we have a little girl next so I can balance out all the boy stuff in my house.

My thoughts today:

Everyone told me that when I have a child I will love that child more than anything in the world. How true that is! Everyday I think I love Graham a little more yet I think to myself "how could I love him more than I already do?". I had my first patient here die this week. She was 4 years old and had a brain tumor. Her parents were my age and they were people that I could relate to very well. I could see us being friends if we had met under different circumstances. My job has gotten 1,000 times harder now that I have a child. I think about what if that were Graham who had cancer or some other chronic medical problem. How would I handle it? Would I be strong for him? Would I have enough faith to know that God would take care of us? I know that this is stuff that is depressing and hard to hear, but it's stuff that I think about when things happen like this at work. So this makes me also think about what I am thankful for:

1. My healthy family!
2. As hard as my job can be sometimes, I'm thankful for a job that allows me to help people in many ways (physically, emotionally, spiritually)
3. I'm thankful for finding a church here that we love!

Sorry for the heavy blog, but I just wanted to tell everyone what I've been thinking about lately and tell you how thankful I am!